Lessons From Spiritual Awakening!
- May 13
- 8 min read
The most important thing to do during 'spiritual awakening is to stay calm'. It's not going to be easy as 'spiritual awakening' is confusing and frustrating. It's an 'emotional roller coaster'. To remain calm is not only very challenging but also nearly impossible.
The next thing to do is 'to follow signs and see where they lead'? My 'signs' led to me to 'life path (3), destiny number (3/9)’ and issue of 'Family Enmeshment'.
My 'spiritual awakening' began in Nov’ 2017 with the appearance of 'repeat numbers aka 'angel numbers''. I searched for the ‘angel numbers’ on the internet. I started to read about them. People write lots of stuff under 'angel numbers such as angels are telling you to speak the language of your soul. Have no fear. You are fully protected' etc.
I would urge people going through 'spiritual awakening' to use a little caution. Feeling 'out of place' is natural part of ‘awakening’. You may loose friends and coworkers. End relationships. Make sure to keep composure.
The Universe Is Too Powerful:
I’ve a Bachelor in Physics and MS in Computer Science. I remember when I received visa to study abroad in the USA. Everyone thought my life got made including myself. (3) decades later, I am surprised @series of events that have unfolded and where I stand today. I have discussed my life story @greater length in other blogs (I won’t go into the details here).
I used to think ‘I was in control of my life'. That's not 100% true. The (5) events that have shaped my life so far are all written in numerology. They are ‘life path # (no standard 9 - 5 job/ career), day of birth (short career), spiritual awakening, Family Enmeshment and destiny'. I have always worked with a plan in life. I am beginning to wonder if I am stuck in a ‘loop of nonstop fresh starts'?
I have spent last 8 1/2 years in ‘spiritual awakening’. My life of past (3) decades looks like 'bizarre coincidences' understood better by 'predictions of a palm reader in my teenage years and writings of pseudoscience and angel numbers' than by 'own thoughts and actions'. An 'unknown force' able to read thoughts seem to intercept my life @critical life altering moments (1998, 2012, 2017, 2019, 2022 and 2025) preventing 'my thoughts from turning into reality' while leaving 'FE' the same (1998 - 2025 =-27 years ~(3) decades) (I have written a blog on 'FE')
I, like, the psychics and others find 'FE' detrimental. Everyone talks to distance oneself from it. I don’t know why ‘anyone would want to create a family, tie them through ‘FE’, create insurmountable toxicity that leads to 'unhappiness and maybe end of family tree'? Is ‘FE my destiny in stead as defined in the pseudoscience’? I feel, ‘FE’ could have been handled in many different ways over my life.
I have always thought of 'FE as the Fate'🤔and 'Destiny = 3/9' as defined in numerology. ‘Destiny (3/9)’ equates to ‘inspire, motivate, heal and uplift people. Reach higher state of consciousness and help others reach 'spiritual awareness''. Once you reach 'destiny', 'fate' is supposed to change.
A person doesn't know of 'destiny' unless something happens (trauma/ extreme loss) that triggers 'spiritual awakening'.
Psychics ‘Logic’ Is Perfect:
Psychics and numerologists do great job in explaining 'events of life but reading universe mind with100% accuracy is very difficult’. Human mind helps in interpretation of ‘repeat patterns called angel numbers’ but it can become distracting. Psychics ask people to use ‘intuition than the mind'. Following mind alone (as opposed to heart and consciousness) can lead to a different path/ conclusion. That's why, it’s important to ‘follow the signs’ and see where they lead.
'Things can take a long time in the spiritual world’. This could be as ‘karma/dharma, karmic debt’ are complex topics. In my opinion, there's general population. Then, there are psychics, numerologists and 'spiritual teachers' who explain things @the higher level. After that comes 'the grey area'. Spiritual realm stands past 'that huge grey area'.
My ‘spiritual awakening' began as I decided to leave for California for the 2nd time (1st move to CA wasn't 'my thoughts'). I understood from it my life has a 'higher purpose’. ‘Spiritual awakening’ marked ‘an end to cycle of life and start of new on a new path'. I followed the signs (pseudoscience and angel numbers) but 'life post awakening’ did not change in 2019, 2022 and 2025🤔
As I look @life today, I feel, ‘my awakening’ should have happened in 1998 based on my ‘life path and destiny numbers’. My 'life path and destiny numbers' do not support standard 9-5 job/ career. The second opportunity was in 2007-2008. It’d have helped in 2012-2013 as well. ‘Awakening’ in 2017 was (2) decades late. It came after tremendous loss to life😌
It wasn’t easy to ‘accept this loss initially’ but I decided to write it off as ‘the pre spiritual awakening phase of life’. I started ‘new life on new path(s)’ in 2019 and took huge risks in both professional and personal life as understood by the signs. In stead of ‘the expected change’, I began to see ‘repeat number 123 (fresh start) again after having spent 8 1/2 years in ‘spiritual awakening (like in 2017-2018)’'.
Everything I have learnt through ‘spiritual awakening’ makes sense. I am surprised life didn't fall in place ‘post spiritual awakening’ in 8 1/2 years😇 It may still if I pick some random career or will it? (I have already tried that). Before I do another ‘fresh start =123’, I’d like to know what went wrong with the ‘last 123’? Why’d it take 8 1/2 years to get to it? Do I have even time for another ‘fresh start’? What’d I do @this stage?
‘Destiny = spiritual path’ + (1) of (3) missed opportunities in 2019, 2022 or 2025 would have 'solved the problem erasing decades of bad karma and ending FE’. ‘Destiny = spiritual path + FE does not end FE' (or does it?)🤔‘Spiritual awakening’ has brought important issue of 'FE' to my attention. 'FE' could have been handled in so many different ways throughout my life but what do I know😁. I wish there was an easy way ‘to read the universe mind' with 100% accuracy. I'll just do what is asked of me.
If your ‘destiny = (9)’ or influence of it, you may experience multiple openings and closings in life. Downside of multiple openings and closings is you may not build anything strategic in life. To build something concrete, you need continuity.
How To Solve It?
I learnt through 'spiritual awakening, I’ve been 'correct' all my life (mind aligned to the heart). Yet, I have been unsuccessful @manifesting my ideal life so far🤔If you have a ‘higher purpose’, you may face the same problem. It's because 'life of a chosen one' doesn't s begin until ‘higher purpose/ destiny’ is revealed (makes sense?) to you.
It's okay to ask ‘Why is life like this’ (I have written a blog on the life of 'chosen ones')? How can I break out of this ‘cycle’? Starting 'new life on new path(s) (spiritual or otherwise)' in the 40s or 50s can get challenging because of age and lack of good opportunities. 'Spiritual path' makes sense but building life around ‘spiritual path’ is not easy. It can take a long time.
I am very thankful to ‘spiritual awakening’. I was upset with some people for messing up my life. 'Awakening’ has helped me get comfortable with myself. I learnt in ‘spirituality', we don't control everything! Friends, family and coworkers are ‘experiences arranged @the soul level for soul to grow’. The only thing I think about is ‘the turn around?’👍
‘Spiritual Awakening is overwhelming’. It’ll take over your life! You could loose years before things start to make sense (if at all). The purpose of 'spiritual awakening is not to confuse or leave people in a state of limbo'. It's to 'awaken/guide them to higher purpose (destiny or someone)'. The outcome of my 'spiritual awakening' so far may not be what I expected but it has helped me in many ways
Explain what had happened
Help get rid of ‘bad energy’
Restore 'balance' into the life
Fill life with ‘enthusiasm and optimism’
Return ‘passion for life’
Healing
I have lot to do. My mind is full of lots of ‘unanswered questions’. The road(s) ahead feel challenging but then no path is ever easy..
'Free Will' Or 'Destiny'?
I used to think I have ‘Free Will’ but ‘spiritual awakening’ has changed that. If you can pick 'spirituality as way of life', you look for the answers in ‘spirituality’. Searching for answers in 'human mind' creates conflicts. 'Repeat numbers' restore 'balance in life' (pls. read my article 'balancing of chakras under life purpose' section of this website). You may get asked to 'start-over' (based on your particular ‘spiritual awakening').
You can look @life and say 'It didn't go as planned. Do a dry run with the changes based on your thoughts and see where it leads you' OR see ‘life where someone has protected you from making bad choices' and pick 'spirituality' as the next step of your life😁
Can ‘Spiritual Awakening’ Become A ‘Trap’?
If ‘spiritual awakening = fresh start’ then you have to find ‘the new path’ fast. Pick a reasonably 'good career', make necessary compromises and move on. Most content on the internet will tell you 'to not look for jobs. In stead, use your gifts'. Going back 'into the past after spiritual awakening' makes no sense. If you don’t find 'path forward soon' then you get trapped in 'non sensical debates'. It can lead to more frustration.
I wish there was a more direct 'channel' of communication. It'll help 'speed things up', especially, when things don't become clear with 'the signs'. 'Signs and their meaning' are written by very smart people (numerologists and astrologers) but not every 'chosen ones destiny' can be the same?
Final Comments:
What determines 'success' in life? Fate, God, Luck or Effort?
Effort is in our hands...
According to psychics, ‘life gets determined before you are born’. I am not going to disagree with it based on my own experience (I am sure there are people who would disagree with me). If what ‘psychics’ say is true, then, shouldn’t 'the universe do sync up (spiritual awakening)’ the moment person is headed in the 'wrong direction'? This way, people won’t waste precious time, life and energy on the 'wrong path'. Also, once ‘the sync up’ is done, shouldn’t life fall into place quickly?
If you look for answers in 'spirituality', it'll tell you 'to wait for the divine timing, what you have started will bring results in10-20 years etc.' What if you don't have 10 - 20 years based on your age?
My life ‘post spiritual awakening’ hasn’t turned out as per 'psychics or the book of numerology’ but I have learnt to stay open. You don’t really know what comes next😁
What if life doesn’t fall in place as per the predictions then should you disappear...
Or should you return (Spiritual Awakening states... Separation ---> Transformation ---> Return)
Should you try build life as 'transformed individual'? 'Spirituality' is 'very interesting’. It makes you ‘think before any decisions’ (Heart vs mind). Actually, it's more than that. If you are in 'the heart vs mind' state, there's your imbalance. What you need is 'balancing of heart and the mind'. Spirituality will tell you to 'to make decisions in the heart as compared to mind'. When you make decisions in the heart, you never go wrong.
The purpose of 'spiritual awakening' is not to create an inside conflict or paralyze people from making decisions. It’s purpose is to help people make good decisions by becoming better version of themselves. ‘Spirituality’ will always be part of my life irrespective of what I decide to do. Heart doesn't change (Heart wants what heart wants). ‘Spiritual/ Angel messages’ won’t either. Their focus is ‘heart/ desires of the heart and higher consciousness’.
Mind can help when put to constructive use. It may not agree but 'commonsense helps understand spiritual problem'. No one knows your story like you do. Connect the dots and you’ll start to get the gist of it. 'Thoughts create reality but then universe controls the ultimate reality'.
Psychics, spiritual teachers and books help but karma/dharma/karmic debt are complex for anyone to predict with100% accuracy.
If you experience ‘spiritual awakening', don't limit yourself to awakening itself. Analyze ‘life before awakening, timing of awakening and life after awakening’. You are looking for ‘common denominator' that has shaped your life. It may surprise you.
My common denominator turned out to be ‘spiritual family enmeshment'. I was born with it. It’s part of my 'destiny'. Pre/ Post spiritual awakening hasn't altered it. Psychics say, people with 'destiny 9' have to live with 'FE' for the rest of their life. I agree with them.
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